The Truth of Suffering

One of the fundamental tenants of Buddhism is the inevitable nature of suffering.  Every time I face it, I am astounded by it’s power to completely overwhelm any and all measures I’ve taken to avoid it.  I know that those very measures themselves are the seeds of suffering, but my aversion to suffering has created a strong habit of avoidance.  Every time I face it I see it more clearly and I am awestruck, both by it’s poetry and my ignorance.

The story of human suffering is the same story with every stroke of it’s devastating brush.  In Hinduism, the Goddess Kali dances her way through the universe, fulfilling the law of impermanence.  It is not canon, but my heart imagines a story in which a suffering spirit was granted one wish.  Thinking she would find peace in immortality, she wished to be the only being in the universe allowed to exist forever.  Her wish came with a curse, to bear the strength of immortality, she is cursed to fulfill the universal law of entropy.  To any who dare make the same wish, Kali invites their blade into her exposed chest.  However her willingness to surrender her immortality is all the hint we need that it comes with her curse.  The warning is lost on no one, and she is doomed to her fate and having seen it I cannot write off her destructive disposition as one of evil or darkness.

This story connects a second truth of Buddhism, the impermanence of all things, although it so closely intertwined with the first that I find them to be inseparable.  We suffer, we find a way to cope, our coping mechanism is impermanent, and when it is taken from us, we suffer.  We need, we find a way to fulfill the need, the way we find fulfillment is impermanent, and when we lose it, we suffer.  With this reality in mind, it becomes devastatingly clear that there is no way not to suffer, with one exception, to rid ourselves of need, including the need not to suffer.

Not only is there nothing that can’t be taken away.  There is nothing that won’t be taken away.  The pain of this reality is amplified by our propensity for complacence.  “You don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone.”  You never realize how much joy something brought you; you never realize how much you allowed yourself to thoughtlessly depend on something and when it’s taken from us, the reality of our dependence is laid bare and our hurt is the only true indicator of worth we ever encounter.

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About chrooth

No this isn't some sort of midlife crisis thing. I'm just adapting. Like anyone else on here, or who does this, I believe I am writer. Unlike most others, I believe I am a writer because I have always written. Long story short, I was a really weird kid and sometimes it just felt like the only place I could turn for some solace and empathy was an empty page. I've always been a melodramatic writer and I've been really happy for a long time so I haven't felt the need to write but when I do... I have to. I basically live on the road, so my journal is hardly ever within reach, and when it is I convince myself that I'm too busy to make any time for it. So here I am, embracing the future, having acquired the journal that will follow me almost anywhere. I'm having one of those, "WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THIS BEFORE!?" moments, and GOD after so long I can't tell you how good it feels to just let my mind spill through the tips of my fingers again. I suppose this would be an appropriate time to qualify both my ability and my intentions. I am not a good writer. I am told I have a strong tendency towards run-ons, I over punctuate, and I curse like a sailor. I can't spell for crap and especially while typing, I have a tendency to just leave words out. As I mentioned earlier this "blog" is meant as a replacement for my long treasured journal, which tends to imply a need for privacy. However, if you were to ever read my journal, you would eventually come across an entry musing over the purpose of a journal, wondering why they are written and kept in secret. I have no secrets. I had far too many secrets for far too long and I assure you, I have no more energy for them. Additionally, I can not properly conjure any feeling of being heard by manufacturing an imaginary personality that lives in a book and understands my words. So I write, and have always written, to you. Thanks for reading it!
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