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About chrooth

No this isn't some sort of midlife crisis thing. I'm just adapting. Like anyone else on here, or who does this, I believe I am writer. Unlike most others, I believe I am a writer because I have always written. Long story short, I was a really weird kid and sometimes it just felt like the only place I could turn for some solace and empathy was an empty page. I've always been a melodramatic writer and I've been really happy for a long time so I haven't felt the need to write but when I do... I have to. I basically live on the road, so my journal is hardly ever within reach, and when it is I convince myself that I'm too busy to make any time for it. So here I am, embracing the future, having acquired the journal that will follow me almost anywhere. I'm having one of those, "WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THIS BEFORE!?" moments, and GOD after so long I can't tell you how good it feels to just let my mind spill through the tips of my fingers again. I suppose this would be an appropriate time to qualify both my ability and my intentions. I am not a good writer. I am told I have a strong tendency towards run-ons, I over punctuate, and I curse like a sailor. I can't spell for crap and especially while typing, I have a tendency to just leave words out. As I mentioned earlier this "blog" is meant as a replacement for my long treasured journal, which tends to imply a need for privacy. However, if you were to ever read my journal, you would eventually come across an entry musing over the purpose of a journal, wondering why they are written and kept in secret. I have no secrets. I had far too many secrets for far too long and I assure you, I have no more energy for them. Additionally, I can not properly conjure any feeling of being heard by manufacturing an imaginary personality that lives in a book and understands my words. So I write, and have always written, to you. Thanks for reading it!

Evolution, Breath, and Our Need to Suffer

Posted on October 13, 2024 by chrooth

Since February 2024, I’ve been engaged in the longest running and most consistent meditation practice I’ve ever managed. ADD, too busy, blah, blah, blah. Just insert whatever excuse you can imagine for someone who’s just plainly undisciplined. All that aside, … Continue reading →

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Prayer to the Self

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

The body gives thanks to the mind, for you’ve felt me.The tongue give thanks to the mind, for you’ve fed me.The ears give thanks to the mind, for you’ve heard me.The nose gives thanks to the mind, for the clean, … Continue reading →

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Emptiness is Weightless… Put It Down

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

There is no where to goNo value to justifyNo purpose to fulfillNo path to followNo Destiny to fulfillNo meaning to realizeNo mara to defeatNo God to pleaseNo truth to find So much suffering caused by chasing the ghosts in our … Continue reading →

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One

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

How to focus absolutely?You have to find a single target of singular nature the represents one thing, one way, preferably named with a single syllable.ONEOne concept, one idea, a singular object that I can point my mind towardsONEOne thought, One … Continue reading →

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The White Plague

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

The nature of the European colonizers can be completely summarized in one belief:That anything they hold sacred touching the ground is offensive. The notion that making contact with the earth is an affront tells us clearly how they feel about … Continue reading →

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The Brotherhood

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

The time I spent is IslamI asked them how a loving God could ever compell an honest man to murderHe said, “You do not understand the meaning of those words;You do not even speak the native tongue of the messenger”And … Continue reading →

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Through The Eyes of God

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

I had no one to look up to and no one to push me. I wasn’t going anywhere, much less where I wanted to go. And I knew I had to push hard because I want to go everywhere, I … Continue reading →

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May It Be

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

In the city, I sleep until I can’t and it’s still never enough. But when I’m in nature my ass is up at the ass-crack of dawn,chasing sacred sounds and tracking magic animals by following the spells they cast. I … Continue reading →

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The Evolution of a God

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

We once we’re joined together in the light and then exploded into dust. The dust came together and exploded into chemicals. Then chemicals came together and they exploded into acid. The acid came together and exploded into life. Then life … Continue reading →

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The Flaccid Whip

Posted on October 5, 2022 by chrooth

The first thing I need to do here is define exactly what I mean when I use the word “community”. It’s more than just a group of animals living together. That’s a “pack”. Human community is not just a pack. … Continue reading →

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